My personality has changed a lot over the past year because I no longer smile when I'm around people. My everyday classroom routine is such that I don't talk to anyone unless there is an academic purpose. So you can say I talk to around 3-4 out of 50 people once or twice a week. Because I don't find the necessity to communicate with my classmates otherwise and I am least bothered about what they think of me. Maybe they think I'm the silent type or the attitude type. I'm neither of them and I am a very loud person. It is safe to say "I was".
I don't smile/laugh unless around my school friends, who I meet once or twice a month. Again, I don't feel the need to smile at people I don't want to be friends with. I'm at that stage in life where I have zero regards for friendship. I don't want to make friends. I've well experienced the taste of friendship, the sweet and bitter of it :)
So, at the end of the 3-hour lecture, I was sipping my water and the professor turns to me and asks "Are you hungry?"
I replied "NO" with a smirk. He then asks,
"Are you so depressed in life?"
I replied "NO" with a smile. And the whole class laughs.
Well, I am depressed. But the main point of focus here is that this was only the third time he had seen me. So what made him think I was depressed? Is it because I was not smiling?
Is smiling and laughing a part of classroom decorum? Since when? It's my face and I choose how I need to express.
Was he concerned or just pointing out my flaw in front of the whole class?
I know for sure he wouldn't have asked it to the other students who smile 24/7.
There is no need to point out such in public and forcing people to smile or laugh is VERY wrong.
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