Goodbyes

A few days ago I was napping in the evening while my friend happened to wake me up, wish me goodbye and leave home. This is just a minor incident that I never imagined would affect my senses so much!
Yes I did know she was leaving, but I thought it was only on the next morning. I was so peaceful at sleep without any worries and she woke me up for a goodbye. I sat there startled. It was definitely not a big thing but I wasn't clearly prepared for it at all. I sat there shockingly looking at her packed bags & her leaving.
I said "are you leaving? Not so soon! Don't leave. You can't do this to me suddenly."

After she'd left, I sat there thinking what if she hadn't woken me up? What if she had left without a goodbye? Would that have been better?
Maybe that could have been worse because I wouldn't have had a chance at goodbye.
Or maybe it could have been better 'cos I would have slept peacefully and would have postponed my pain & also wouldn't have begged her not to leave.

Which one's better?

     Many a people have left me without a goodbye. Maybe 'cos if they had a chance at goodbye, I wouldn't have let them leave & would have cried until they decided to stay. Or maybe because the 'leaving' process is so hard for people to handle and that's why they choose to leave without a goodbye.
But I guess I wouldn't be one such person. I'd leave a sweet goodbye even if it tears apart someone's heart. Because, it is better to let someone know why you're leaving than to leave them guessing their faults and blaming themselves for the rest of their lives.
Goodbye.